Mama
May 17, 2012
Mama because it sounded like Mummy, because that was how closely knitted we were. Because she loved me like she would have if she had a daughter. She brought me to places, stayed me till 1am the morning on a weekday to help me with my maths. Promised me Disneyland if I ever passed my maths, but I guess God couldn’t wait. She taught me so many things.
We had so much traditions together, so much so the family stop celebrating festives occasion cause it’d bring back too much memories. Its not like we didn’t try. We tried and I broke down infront of everyone on Christmas spoiling everybody elses’ holiday mood.
I hate it. Hate it when people ask why I don’t celebrate Christmas with my family. Because its just not the same anymore. Hate it when I see big family carrying lantern. Hate it when I see big family having lunch/dinner celebrating mother’s day. Hate it. I missed the days where I had to draw 4 mother’s card because I have 2 grandmother and 2 mother. Missed the days where we have dimsum every mother’s day without fail.
If there’s one thing I could do. I’d swop places.
I’m so upset I cannot even verbalize my thought properly. She would have nagged at me for how lousy my english is here.
March 2012
April 15, 2012
Paintball for Adam’s 23rd. Bruises aside, it was so much fun! I wanna do it again! Unfortunately, none of us took any pictures. We would have looked so silly anyway, especially Mandy I and. We were both dawned in over sized smart 4.
My babies got me this cake, IT’S ONE OF THE NOMZ-EST BROWNIE I HAVE EVER EATEN. Its so so good. They got me a tumbler, how timely, the one W got from me from Taiwan’s Starbucks broke. 
And J’s birthday at the Ship.
I’m still in love with you.
April 13, 2012
How apt. Couldn’t stop listening to this ever since I heard it on W’s computer.
我不像從前的自己 你也有點不像你
但在我眼中你的笑 依然的美麗
直至只能往前走 一個方向順時鐘
不知道愛有多久 所以要讓你懂
我依然愛你 這是唯一的退路
我依然珍惜 時時刻刻的幸福
你每個呼吸 每個動作 每個表情
到最後 一定會 依然愛你
Taiwan
April 8, 2012
Finally got down to book our tickets to Taiwan, he was so stoked he googled map the streets of XMD and walked me through it. I really love seeing him getting so excited. I felt really bad for not having enough faith in him, didn’t thought we’d save enough money to go Taiwan since a month before Taiwan we’ll be going to Phuket. Hee, yes Phuket again. Mad love for Thailand. The food. OMG. Thai cuisine is one of my favourite. Hee. Now I’ll just have to wait for him to ORD and keep my fingers cross my future boss will be kind enough to let me take leave.
“I’m really excited about Taiwan because I have been there and every minute of being there I was thinking of you and how much you’ll enjoy this place. Everything I see, I think of you and all the things and fun I would have if you were here.”
The amount of stuff he got for me when he was in Taiwan in the short span of 1 day?! Heehee.
HAHAHAHAHA now that reality kicks in, it really feels too far-fetched to be excited or planning about it.
What the future holds
April 6, 2012
I’m becoming increasingly apprehensive about the future. I’m bound to graduate this May, with all my friends attending networking sessions and sending out resumes.. and me … I’m just clueless. I have not even drafted my resume.
Come what may
March 27, 2012
Past weeks have been brutal for both W and I especially with the increasing pressure for him to leave for UK and the growing complacency.
We didn’t spoke for a day, it was the longest we have ever gone without speaking. He texted me later that night.
3 hours later…
“I’m at your place..”
“I have been here since the first message.. about 1am?”
I was touched, He waited even though I took an hour an a half to reply his first message. In my defense I didn’t know until much later he was here.
He is my bestfriend, my boyfriend and never in a million years I will give him up. How do you give someone up when everytime you are waiting to see him, you smile to yourself like its the first date?
Protected: Re-live
March 18, 2012
Repetitive
March 13, 2012
Even I’m sick and tired of feeling this way, of listening to myself whine and bitch over the same issue for the n times.
The very fine line between trying again and giving up.
